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idek if i have an e///d but like ?  does anyone else not let themselves eat / starve themselves if they did poorly on an exam / grade or if they’re feeling guilt or shame ??  i’ve got ….. a wicked high guilt complex tied to my trans identity / extreme internalized transphobia ….. tie that into the perfectionism / literal obsession with perfection from being the ““““perfect golden child prodigy”””” and wanting to punish myself if i let myself slip even in the slightest …………….i build bad coping skills. 

does anyone have a similar issue / any way to help get rid of these feelings or at least curb them a bit ???  i feel like once i have my own place away from the implicit pressure from my parents it’ll be better but until then i’m stuck ….